I’m all sorts of messed up especially during December.
Today is my brother’s birthday. He also died on December 7th. He didn’t live his life but this time of year marks the time I lost my mother to grief and the end of my not really childhood. I hate this time of year especially because I remember every second of those 3 days and I remember having and holding onto a brother only to lose him and the life I knew.
I found this on Youtube this morning. Hats off to the new owners for helping him lose weight, but I find the way he slides through the door at the end to be incredibly funny. I also get a kick out of the way he looks up at the camera and meows like ‘WHAT are you looking at?”
my social studies teacher once told us “human beings are the most selfish of all. even when someone dies, you shed tears only because they are no more around to provide you with whatever they had been for so long”
and it has been 3 years since she said this and this is still what i think about at night